4.28.2005
American Shocker
Unfortunately chores took me out of my house and away from my television Tuesday night for my regular installment of American Idol. So you could imagine my surprise when Constantine was shifted over to the bottom three instead of Scott. Disappointment, shock, anger, fear and total disbelief set in. The first question: How the hell is Scott making it week after week? stumbled out of my mouth, immediatedly followed by: What the fuck?!Now don't get me wrong, I hate---no loathe Constantine and his cheeky--oh look at me I'm soooo cute don't you want me---stage antics with a passion. Every time he takes the stage and starts gawking into the camera like a lone deer seducing an on-coming car I want to vomit. He is so whack, and corny and so not what America needs in an idol! But I'm saying, Scott? Who's voting for this cat? Who's out there week after week picking up their phone and filling up his voicemail with millions and millions of votes? His family? His friends? A whole host of tone deaf supporters? Who God who?!
Once the shock wore off I studied the bottom three and panicked: Vonzell. And I just knew (I think she did too) that her number was up---because come on, did anyone really think Constawhine was going home? Almost immediately Sdot and I began to rally our support around the only black person left in the competition. In case you haven't been keeping up with the show, and my memory serves me correct, the last three contestants voted off were black: Nikko, Nadia & Anwar! (Which further fuels my theory they really don't want another black idol--how much do you wanna bet this year's winner will be white--and almost certainly male!) So when Ryan waved her to the safe section we were like, good, good and even more confused as to who would be voted off.
And then there were five. Yeah I was floored, yeah I expected a bunch of teenage girls to vote him and his pouty smirks all the way to the final three, but when I really think about last night's verdict I find myself pretty damn glad it was Constawhine's whack ass and not Scott. Because um uh, Scott's ticket is up, and I'm pretty damn sure next week his ass will be off the show---and forever off my television screen. (Fingers and toes crossed.)
As to who will win this year's competition? I'm placing my bets on Bo. I like him. Even from the very beginning I liked him. To me he's the most polished, most authentic performer the show currently has. There's no pretense. No begging. Just talent. And unless I've missed something, that is what the show is about.
4.19.2005
Someone 2 Love
"You have the power to create. Your power is so strong that whatever you believe comes true. Your whole reality, everything you believe, is your creation." ~The Mastery of Love, Don Miguel Ruiz
And so I'm back, from outer space.
Man, oh man, oh man. Let's just say it's been weird. With that said (and no real explanation for being gone) let's jump into it.
Okay, relationships. Got one? Want one? Been in one? Does it work? What makes them work? Why didn't it work? All of these questions come as I examine the art of relationships with special emphasis on male/male unions. Recently I've been asking people I come into contact with how many of their friends are in a relationship. Not just a relationship, but a functional (as far as you can tell) "healthy" relationship. And I am not at all surprised by the answers. Most people I've queried know at least three people in a relationship. Which initially sounds good until I hit them with: "and this is out of how many friends/acquaintances?" And then the numbers shrink, drastically.
Nearly 90% of my friends are single. Single and looking. Single and not looking. Single and waiting, for someone or something to come along and as Aretha sung Rescue Me. Most maintain they're happy being single, some admit their frustrations in finding someone suitable to love, and then there are those who are just having fun. But all of them when prompted readily admit if they had it their way, they'd surely have someone in their life. So what's the problem? Well, since you asked...
(1) Options. In this day of hit and run, internet connect, we fuck before we know each other's names, it's no wonder settling down is so friggin' arduous.
(2)Patience. Who has the time to get to know each other? Better yet, who wants to? Is there even a such thing as dating anymore? And does this take place before or after the fuck?
(3)Realism. He has to look like this, believe in this, speak like this, cater to my needs, never show aggression or weakness or fear or pretense or anything remotely human whatsoever---or, I'm out.
And while some of you may think I'm way off the mark I'm almost certain the majority of you will agree wholeheartedly because you've been there, done that. And while those are contributing factors the main reason so many of my friends (and yours) are single is due to a lack of community support for relationships. In all honesty, who wants to be in a relationship when you've got sites like Adam4Adam offering up free trade on daily basis? I mean come on! Being single is a luxury in this lifestyle--especially when its bundled with youth! Add in a dose of masculinity, a decent body and a sizable member and you've hit the motherfuckin' jackpot! Hot damn ho here I go again... These are the things our community covets. These are the things that we seek, and utimately, these are the things we find.
We need to re-boot our community. We need to re-examine our priorities. We need to stop looking at ourselves as profiles, types and potential fuck buddies if we are ever to attain that which we desire. Just saying you want a relationship doesn't help materialize one. When we realize this and admit to ourselves that we are our own worst enemy, and that it is our bad habits that stands between love and lust, our search for someone to love will become a thing of the past. Because when you give love, you get love...abundantly.
And so I'm back, from outer space.Man, oh man, oh man. Let's just say it's been weird. With that said (and no real explanation for being gone) let's jump into it.
Okay, relationships. Got one? Want one? Been in one? Does it work? What makes them work? Why didn't it work? All of these questions come as I examine the art of relationships with special emphasis on male/male unions. Recently I've been asking people I come into contact with how many of their friends are in a relationship. Not just a relationship, but a functional (as far as you can tell) "healthy" relationship. And I am not at all surprised by the answers. Most people I've queried know at least three people in a relationship. Which initially sounds good until I hit them with: "and this is out of how many friends/acquaintances?" And then the numbers shrink, drastically.
Nearly 90% of my friends are single. Single and looking. Single and not looking. Single and waiting, for someone or something to come along and as Aretha sung Rescue Me. Most maintain they're happy being single, some admit their frustrations in finding someone suitable to love, and then there are those who are just having fun. But all of them when prompted readily admit if they had it their way, they'd surely have someone in their life. So what's the problem? Well, since you asked...
(1) Options. In this day of hit and run, internet connect, we fuck before we know each other's names, it's no wonder settling down is so friggin' arduous.
(2)Patience. Who has the time to get to know each other? Better yet, who wants to? Is there even a such thing as dating anymore? And does this take place before or after the fuck?
(3)Realism. He has to look like this, believe in this, speak like this, cater to my needs, never show aggression or weakness or fear or pretense or anything remotely human whatsoever---or, I'm out.
And while some of you may think I'm way off the mark I'm almost certain the majority of you will agree wholeheartedly because you've been there, done that. And while those are contributing factors the main reason so many of my friends (and yours) are single is due to a lack of community support for relationships. In all honesty, who wants to be in a relationship when you've got sites like Adam4Adam offering up free trade on daily basis? I mean come on! Being single is a luxury in this lifestyle--especially when its bundled with youth! Add in a dose of masculinity, a decent body and a sizable member and you've hit the motherfuckin' jackpot! Hot damn ho here I go again... These are the things our community covets. These are the things that we seek, and utimately, these are the things we find.
We need to re-boot our community. We need to re-examine our priorities. We need to stop looking at ourselves as profiles, types and potential fuck buddies if we are ever to attain that which we desire. Just saying you want a relationship doesn't help materialize one. When we realize this and admit to ourselves that we are our own worst enemy, and that it is our bad habits that stands between love and lust, our search for someone to love will become a thing of the past. Because when you give love, you get love...abundantly.
